I Didn't Know
I love how this one came out. Very pleased with the both the beat and lyrical content. On the CD, I forgot to add that it featured my dear friend, Carmella McCoy (Sorry, Mookie!) . She is awesome, and we hope to see her on an international stage very soon.
Verse I: I'm shocked by what I'm seeing, and rocked by what I'm reading. It's not what I belived, and it's got me so uneasy. God I felt was was diety, I felt I was free to be whatever was pleasing but mocked Him with my reasoning. He's been ever watching me, sees I'm living sloppily, Grieves 'cause I've blocking this Jesus I've been knocking. These verses I'm clockin' conceds Christ as begotten, the seed of God the Father and pleads for my response. But the difficulty that I'm having with this passage is it's certain to lead me to His wrath if this is accurate. Did Christ really bleed 'cause of my passions and my actions? Conceived and lived immaculate, did this for me? Did He get ukp in three? I use to joke and laugh and badger Him, called Him a hoax was mad at Him, but I read and I see, that the prophets of old, spoke of a Man who'd be bold, is this the Dude that they told of, I just don't know.
Hook: I was cool with doing my own thing, I never knew I needed Jesus like this y'all.
Was doing 'me' and it was so routine, I didn't know I needed Jesus like that y'all.
I didn't think I needed Christ in my life, I lived my life like me and God was alright.
Until I rea this incovenient Truth, I didn't know wht I should do about this, this y'all.
Verse II: He drew attention like a Beemer, seen as a blasphemer, got rid of the filth inside like a toilet bowl cleaner. Was checking His demeanor, as Savior and Redeemer, my truth was hard to stand on like I had a broken femur. See I would point the finger, but now my doubting lingers, but kept up with the trash talk like this was Jerry Springer. And as a non believer, I'm not convincing either, my belief in my unbelief's why my argument is weaker. Seems God decided back then, before the days of "back when", He'd serve up Christ on the back end, and get His folk on the backspin. That what He did to buy back men, to give them what they're lackin'. If that true, then all my actions, are enough to send me packin'. But He's the God of love right? If He's so full of mercy give it up right? But ain't no difference if I go and put my hand in a chipper, be surprised when I'm pulling back nubs, right? Right! Gotta pay those consequences, and what my sin says, is that my behavior begs for a need for Savior, but I just don't know.
(Hook)
Verse III: Now what if I, am right about the fact that Jesus Christ ain't Adonai, that He wasn't a prophet or Messiah, but just a guy? So His blood wasn't sufficient to cleanse or to justity, or that everything I've read in these pages is just a lie? And what if there's no place that you will go after you die? What happens to your hope when you find there's no other side? All that loving your brothers, and neighbors, and haters and others, all that joy when it don't apply. But what if I carry the burden of being the one that is not on the right side and, the peace and the joy and the hope in this life that I figured was being denied me was being provided by the One tthat they called the Son, the Son of the One who created the sun, by way of the Son, the Word of the One. If that's right, then all of my lyin' and stealin' and cheatin' and whorin' it carries a great price. And all of my cryin' and dealin' and pleadin' implorin' will carry no weight, right? The truth of the matter is that I'm purposeless. I can see all of the things I've done and see my worthlessness, Lord please...!
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Vamp: I see it's true, I have a worldly view, thought that I was happy, but my greatest need is you!
Lord I give my life to you! Everything that I am and everything that I have it belongs to you! Lord please Jesus! Let your light shine through me! Lord, Jesus save me!